Going Strong!

Well I am still working on this and it has gotten easier in some parts and not much on others. I still like to eat but I am still learning to eat better. It's towards the end of the week when things start getting tricky and I am due for a trip to the store. My family isn't minding the change as much as I thought. I am down a total of 4 pounds. Not a lot but still a good start and I am happy about it. Well that's all for now :)

Ouch that HURT!

So I have been M.I.A. for a few days! We had a little mini vacation that was so nice with my closest of friends and the kids! However I miss my husband terribly! But oh man did it hurt when I fell of the horse on the trail to healthy. I mean skinned up knees and 4 POUNDS heavier. Whoa I about died when I saw the scale. I knew it was bad but not that bad. There wasn't a healthy food in sight from Wednesday through Sunday when I arrived home. Thankfully I am serious and got back up brushed myself off and jumped back on my horse. Let's just say with no soda and a good mix of vegetables and portion control life has resumed normalcy and my body feels better! O and guess what the pounds are coming back off! Thank you! Well that is all folks!

Cravings

Yay I made it through the first day without any caffeine!  During the day it wasn't so tough I just drank my water and had a glass a juice so it didn't really bother me. Then evening came when I put all my children to sleep and could just sit and relax and wait for my husband to come home. I wanted a soda so bad. I also crave the salty goodness of potato chips and good chocolate bar. I survived though and am so happy about it. He must have read my mind though because he came in the house with a soda for me but it wasn't Mountain Dew he brought me a Verners which was just as good without the caffeine! I love the fact that is so supportive of me! I couldn't have asked for a better partner! The best part is he brought me the something I could have and I didn't drink the whole thing like I normally would down a Mountain Dew. Instead I took a few sips closed the lid and continued drinking my water. I think what I needed to satisfy me was the carbonation. I just have to keep reminding myself of INO and that it will get easier and I will eventually get use the changes I am making! My clothes still fit the same but I know that will all change in time.

My #1 Support Person!

Mountain Dew Funeral

The Nutrition appointment went well yesterday all except one thing. I had to have a Mountain Dew Funeral. Not only did my nutritionist tell me this but my family doctor to me to rid myself of it for my migraines. So here are my marching orders to help on my weight loss journey.

1. Drink more water. Your body can think you are hungry when you are really thirsty.

( I did not know this!)

2.. Have a Mt. Dew Funeral. 

3. Eat out of smaller plates. It LOOKS like more. 

(see Portion Control post)

4. Follow myplate.gov provided.

(this is awesome!)

5. Keep food records.

6. Aim for 1-2 pounds weight loss per week.

(removal of Mountain Dew should help)

7. Eat Slowly. Chew foods well.

This all seems so easy! However I know the Mountain Dew demons are around every corner. I just have to stick to it and not let life get in the way! I am finally feeling like I am doing something great not only for myself but for my family as well! And if you are working with me on this I hope it helps you as well!

Final Goodbye to my Mountain Dew last night!

Nutrition

I decided about a month ago I needed to seek help on my journey to a thinner and healthier me so I asked my doctor for some help. I am thankful that she didn't suggest something as drastic as a weight loss surgery or a type of weight loss pill. Instead she referred me to a nutritionist! So today I go for my nutrition appointment to help me plan better meals involving all the food groups! I am so excited! We have never eaten properly and that is probably 90% of the problem. I live for carbs, carbs, and more carbs! My families meals usually involve potatoes, meat, and some other form of carbs! Hardly ever do we have a vegetable or fruit. But over the last few days we have started having more veggies and I made jello with fruit in it to help my children want to eat. Maybe soon we can remove the jello even though t isn't terrible. So wish me luck today!

Portion Control

Another thing I am learning through all of this is portion control. I come from a family of eaters ad I don't just mean eaters I mean we live to eat. BIG plates piled high where we go back for seconds and thirds because that's how much is always prepared. I have to admit I am guilty of cooking like that in my own home. So tonight for dinner I made a taco casserole and only made an 8x8 instead of the regular 13x9. I also have decided that we are going to start eating off of our smaller plates to help us really look at what we're eating and hopefully tricking our minds that since the plate is full we should as well. Even if my family gets seconds it would be the equivalent of one regular plate. I pulled out INO tonight and only had one plate. A small but GREAT accomplishment for me! I know it's only 3 days in but I am feeling good! Life can revolve around food, but we can control how much we eat!

Self Help Books

O goodness why did I even hit that section at the library Wednesday. Well let's see here I have tried everything else and it hasn't worked. I ended up finding a book called "Secrets of a Former Fat Girl". It has been an interesting book and has given me a few good tips. One for instance is It's Not an Option!! INO is my new motto! I know that with 3 kids, a house, cat, and a husband there has to be a little leeway but I can do this because it's not an option! The other thing I have learned through this is to be open and honest with myself. One thing that I had never done was set a goal. So I have my goal at least 37 pounds in 6 months! YAY me! So yesterday I took the first step and hit the YMCA! It felt good to finally go and just do it rather than sit at home and beat myself up because well I made excuses to why I didn't go again! Now onto our second part of getting my body in line! Let's start trying to find some healthy yet DELICIOUS meals under our belt and actually eating when I should.

The Beginning

 I remember weight being a problem for my family at early age. Everyone in my family was overweight especially on my grandfathers side of the family so it was the norm. My mom I remember had her own battles with weight with crash dieting and trying different workout plans and still staying overweight. As a result of this she had the surgery and is doing much better. It's so nice to see her happy about the way she looks and new self confidence that is real. As a small child I would ask her why are you so fat. Wow what a horrible thing to say. I guess I didn't know any better. I also remembering telling her I didn't want to be fat like her. Well I wasn't overweight for a long time. The weight for me started around my freshman year of high school when people would start saying wow you're getting thick. UGH kids can be so cruel! Eventually the comments stopped and I was just fat. I don't really know when I became just plain fat but I did and here I am today. I have tried the diets before and ridiculous exercising but the thing was I didn't make my family responsible before. Now instead of trying to cook them something and skimp on it myself we will all learn portion control and a well balanced meal together. It has to be a lifestyle change for all of us. Thank goodness I am doing this now when my kids will still eat almost anything so I can train them and hopefully they will not struggle them same as I have. Well of to the YMCA for me. Which by the way I could have already hit and passed my current goal considering I have had a membership for over a year now. No time like the present!

The Decision

So I have struggled with my weight for a long time. About ten years now. I haven't done anything about it because when I try I fail. However I have three little  ones that need me and need me to run and chase then and be able to be here for a long time. My oldest use to tell me I'm her big fat mommy. As if that didn't sting enough I believe it and see it now. I feel gross and today I am starting my journey to get healthy. I promise you the internet world, myself, my kids, and my husband in six months I will be under 200 pounds. That means in 24 weeks on December 6, 2012 I will at least weigh 199. So I will have to lose 37 pounds to get there. It will be an average 1.5 pounds a week. What a better way to celebrate my 27th birthday than to say I am finally under 200 in over 5 years! WOW! I almost can not believe I am posting online for the world to see but I need some support or at least an outlet to vent when I feeling down. I am posting a picture of a starting point of where I am now and when the final day comes I will post the end result! So here goes world. Any goal even small is a goal! LETS ROCK THIS!!!!

So he I am all 5'2 and 236 lb. me Pant size 24 Shirt size XXL